I’ve been watching the American Horror Story series a lot lately, and I actually quite like it! I’m half way through Coven, but I’m still not sure which one out of the three I like most!
Asylum was definitely the creepiest out of the three in my opinion though!
I meant to post this on my reblog blog… but why not? Now you all know I love pugs.
This made me cry a little bit :(
<3 I love you
I visited this boy today in his summer camp at UCSD! It was really nice to just walk around and hang out with him after two weeks of him being there. I also met his friends there, and I really hope they liked me; they were all pretty fun to be around~
Andrew said something to me while we sat on the grass with his friends that, although was pretty light-hearted given the context it was said in (we were talking about how he wasn’t grossed out by me when I made one of the ugliest noises because I chocked on boba during our first month or two of dating), I still thought about that for a while.
I’m still so grateful that Andrew stayed with me for the first five months of us dating and didn’t give up. I can’t imagine the thoughts or the anxiety running through his mind when I wouldn’t make it official right away especially because he wasn’t really familiar with the idea of “courting.” We started dating in January, and it took me up until May to finally ask him to be my boyfriend. I’m still sorry that I made him wait for so long… but I think it’s a little justified (?) because I wanted my boyfriend/the first person I said “I love you” to in a romantic way to be the one I’d stay with for a long long time and I’d see a great future with. It’s not even that it took me that long to get comfortable around him or to start to love him… actually to be honest, I was really comfortable around him when I first started talking to him in London! We were talking a lot and even sharing some secrets that I know I haven’t told more than one or two people. If anything, somewhere in those months of us dating, I got so comfortable with him that loving him was so natural to me. It came down to me waiting for the perfect time to ask him. I did it on May 15 while we were dancing together under the stars. It was really romantic!
It’s been such a wonderful journey with you and I’m excited to see where this adventure takes us next! Love you neuropeen!!
Orientation was nearly perfect for me.
I can’t remember the last time I was able to connect with people I’ve never met before on such a level. We all clicked instantly, but to be honest, I didn’t realize how close we all were until the very end of SPOP.
I heard people say things about me that I don’t think I’ve ever been told before.
"Oh yeah, I was just telling her about how easy you are to talk to and to get along with even after just a few minutes!"
"Jerimi, you’re such a sweetheart!"
"You’re really outgoing."
"You’re such a happy person." - This one got to me.
Those are just a few things people said about and wrote to me. Also, on our last activity (I won’t give anything away just in case there are people on tumblr who are attending future SPOPs), I found out that people, even some outside of the 6 or 7 friends I made, looked up to me and thought so highly of me. I feel that those people were genuine because it was all done with some anonymity. During that activity, I started to cry because I was just so happy that people saw things in me that I didn’t even know were there.
Maybe it’s just me being super gushy and everything, but something felt different. Maybe it’s how I carried and presented myself that showed others my true colors? I honestly don’t know what exactly what happened, but things just went so smoothly these past two days. I was able to talk to teenagers I have never met before without much hesitation.
I’m looking foreword to college. If things go even half as well as they did during SPOP, I have no fear of entering UCI.
ZOT ZOT ZOT!
Thank you, you kind soul! I will! Your support won’t go to waste! C:
Today, I was thinking about my character and I’ve come to think that I see myself as a generally nice person. I mean yeah, I can be a total ass if I’m comfortable enough around you to joke like that, but I don’t think I’ve turned into an awful person.
I don’t know. I’ve been dedicating this past week or so into changing my lifestyle. I want to be a healthier both physically and emotionally. I feel like along with regular exercise, I should be strengthening my positive emotional state, and I want to start that with improving my self image.
So yeah, that starts with reconstructing my thoughts on myself. Who I am shouldn’t be dictated by other people’s thoughts, but moreso my own, and to continue with what I was saying earlier, I do believe that I have a good foundation. I don’t believe that I’m perfect, nor am I even extraordinarily nice… but I think believing that I am a good person at heart is a good way to start improving my emotional health.
Hopefully things start to look up from here on out!
Something I’ve been fighting for the past four years is the thought that I’m just not good enough — mediocre at everything and easily thrown away.
I still have these destructive thoughts to this day despite all I’ve endured and overcome.
I need help changing how I construct my thoughts and how to control the affects of these thoughts on my emotions.
I know some of these thoughts are faulty in logic, but it still hurts.
I’m feeling a bunch of emotions swelling inside me right now. It’s very uncomfortable.
But yeah, these past few days have been pretty eventful to say the least! ☀️☀️☀️☀️☀️☀️☀️☀️☀️☀️☀️☀️☀️☀️☀️☀️☀️☀️☀️☀️☀️☀️☀️☀️☀️☀️☀️☀️☀️☀️☀️☀️☀️☀️☀️☀️☀️☀️☀️☀️
Confession: I accidentally went to Walmart with no underwear on. It felt nice, and while I’m there, it doesn’t occur to me that I could easily be pantsed. Eh, I think I’ll do it more often.